We just got the results of the D&C. There was NOTHING wrong with our baby.
Of all the results I prepared myself for this was the one I feared. Strange really since it should give us some comfort and joy to know that we can make healthy babies. But now I have to deal with what caused our baby to die. Was it my body? Or worse, was it because of a lack of progesterone because they had told me to stop giving it? I have literally being avoiding this possibility because I have been afraid to let my mind wander down such a dark path of anger and blame if I didn’t have any proof. But now I’m not sure what to think. I am getting more blood drawn for additional tests to see if for any reason my body rejected the baby. Until I get these results I’m still going to withhold my judgment for my own mental health. I still need to recover emotionally from this loss. I should know in 2 weeks if I am to blame or our clinic.