Wednesday, December 1, 2010

At Peace

Thank you for all your prayers and support.  Today we went in for a follow up ultrasound but we did not see any growth or signs of a heart beat.  I am scheduled for a D&C tomorrow morning.  Last time I did the Cytotec pills but that was when I just had a small sac and this is much more significant.  Also this way Hammer and I can have a pathology report done to see why we lost our little one.

It is interesting to note that when we questioned further if our first beta was truly negative we found out that it was in fact 5.  Apparently they categorize anything 5 or less as negative.   That is fine except that ours was clearly not a true negative.  It has shaken my confidence in our clinic and leaves me feeling that they helped put us in this bad position.  I know it might not have changed the outcome but it does add to our frustrations. 

11 comments:

kdactyl said...

I'm so sorry there was no additional growth this week. But mostly I am so sorry your clinic did not insist on a 2nd beta after the first. I would feel the same as you and question my trust in that clinic.
I had a d&c with my first pregnancy and I found it to be an easy procedure (physically) and helped me move on and recover faster. I will say lots of prayers of additional peace for you for tomorrow. Hugs,

kd

NewLife4Me said...

I am so sorry this has happened to you again. It is by far the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my life and I can understand your pain. I hope that you are able to get answers so that you can one day hold your baby in your arms.

Hugs.

Lindsey said...

I am so sorry. I can't believe your clinic wouldn't have done more bloodwork just in case! Praise God for His peace, I pray that He will continue to shower you in it!

Amber said...

My heart goes out to you and dh during this time. Praying for you both tomorrow. I am so sorry.

Ashley said...

So sorry to hear this!

Marion said...

I am so sorry! I was hoping for a beautiful heartbeat for you two. It is devastating to hear that it had to end this way. I hope they will be able to give you some explantions after the tests.

BB said...

So sorry my dear! :(

Carli said...

I am so sorry. We were all hoping for a much more positive outcome. I know you are at peace with the D&C and I am hoping the pathology report will tell you more about what went wrong.

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

Im so very sorry.

I do agree with your thoughts about your clinic. Maybe consider giving a different one one last shot..or at least a second opinion?

Keep your head up, Mrs. H.

Hope said...

I am so sorry! I hope you can get some answers from your pathology report. Thinking of you!!

Amy said...

I am so sorry. and sorry about your clinic. I would think that with such a border-line number they would want to do a follow-up.