Oh where do I even begin. So I was expecting my period on Friday of last week but it was late. I decided that maybe I was still messed up from IVF so Hammer and I decided to wait until Monday to test if I hadn't gotten my period yet. When Monday rolled around and AF was no where to be seen I pulled out a free internet cheapie, did the deed and in mere seconds the test turned up positive. We were shocked.
I called my RE's nurse that morning and went in for a blood draw late that afternoon. Some where around 11am the next day I got a call but I could not have been prepared for what she was about to tell me. My HCG was over 60,000. I was speechless. She told me that my RE thought that maybe the first beta was a false negative but since I 'bled' i.e. thought I got my period, we didn't do the repeat beta.
I was scheduled for an ultrasound today at 10:30. Sure enough there was a gestational sac, yolk sac, and fetal pole. But to our dismay there was no heart beat. The baby is measuring a bit off based upon dates, i.e. more like 7 weeks.
Hammer and I have decided to wait and do a repeat ultrasound next Wednesday. We are asking for you to pray with us for a miracle. Our hope is that some how this baby implanted so ridiculously late that we are just looking too early for a heart beat. We know that the chances are extremely slim but God does do miracles.
I still cannot get over the fact that I've been walking around for the last four weeks completely unaware that I was even pregnant. Looking back I did have some tell tale symptoms. But I think because I had such heavy bleeding immediately after our negative results, and that the bleeding lasted for four days we just could not imagine that I could be pregnant. I mean for Pete's sake I thought I ovulated. I even took an ovulation test! As a side note I did go back and pee on another ovulation stick to see if maybe it would come up positive now that I knew I was pregnant and it did so I am just floored and very confused. Please pray for us during this time. We can barely wrap our minds around what has all transpired in the last three days. Going from thinking we conceived on our own, to having extremely high hcg, to an ultrasound without a heart beat. It's just excruciating and even more painful having seen a little baby with it's tiny arms and legs inside of me.