Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Shocking Update and Desperate Need for Prayer

Oh where do I even begin.  So I was expecting my period on Friday of last week but it was late.  I decided that maybe I was still messed up from IVF so Hammer and I decided to wait until Monday to test if I hadn't gotten my period yet.  When Monday rolled around and AF was no where to be seen I pulled out a free internet cheapie, did the deed and in mere seconds the test turned up positive.  We were shocked.

I called my RE's nurse that morning and went in for a blood draw late that afternoon.  Some where around 11am the next day I got a call but I could not have been prepared for what she was about to tell me.  My HCG was over 60,000.   I was speechless.  She told me that my RE thought that maybe the first beta was a false negative but since I 'bled' i.e. thought I got my period, we didn't do the repeat beta. 

I was scheduled for an ultrasound today at 10:30.  Sure enough there was a gestational sac, yolk sac, and fetal pole.  But to our dismay there was no heart beat.  The baby is measuring a bit off based upon dates, i.e. more like 7 weeks.

Hammer and I have decided to wait and do a repeat ultrasound next Wednesday.  We are asking for you to pray with us for a miracle.  Our hope is that some how this baby implanted so ridiculously late that we are just looking too early for a heart beat.  We know that the chances are extremely slim but God does do miracles. 

I still cannot get over the fact that I've been walking around for the last four weeks completely unaware that I was even pregnant.  Looking back I did have some tell tale symptoms.  But I think because I had such heavy bleeding immediately after our negative results, and that the bleeding lasted for four days we just could not imagine that I could be pregnant.  I mean for Pete's sake I thought I ovulated.  I even took an ovulation test!  As a side note I did go back and pee on another ovulation stick to see if maybe it would come up positive now that I knew I was pregnant and it did so I am just floored and very confused.  Please pray for us during this time.  We can barely wrap our minds around what has all transpired in the last three days.  Going from thinking we conceived on our own, to having extremely high hcg, to an ultrasound without a heart beat.  It's just excruciating and even more painful having seen a little baby with it's tiny arms and legs inside of me.

23 comments:

RELH said...

umm...wow! My fingers are crossed that this is a viable pregnancy.

Mandy said...

I cannot imagine all the emotions you are going through right now. Prayers for you and your little baby, hopefully growing bigger and stronger! And 7 weeks is pretty early to see a heartbeat. With my first, and now my second pregnancy I didn't see it until week 8

landert said...

Praying and hoping for a miracle for you! God does do wonderful things!

Shannon said...

Holy oh my gosh! I had goosebumps the entire time I read your entry. Im praying that God sheds insight onto this situation soon and that he blesses you with the continued growth of your miracle.

And I know you will hear tons of different stories but I want to tell you mine- At 7 weeks, Emma showed a heartbeat but Josh, who always measured several days behind, did not. So I have tons of faith that this could have an amazingly wonderful ending.

Carli said...

Oh My Gosh, what a whirlwind 3 days. I know that you are both beside yourselves. I will definitely be saying a few prayers that your little one just implanted extremely late.

cady said...

Wow! You guys are in my prayers. I'm really hoping this pregnancy will be viable!

Brittney said...

Oh my goodness!! I will definitely be praying.

Allison said...

I will say an extra prayer for you guys and will be keeping you in my thoughts. Praying for a miracle baby!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Oh WOW! Will be Praying! God is STILL a God of Miracles!

Lindsey said...

That is incredible! I am praying for you and hoping this baby grows nice and strong for next week's ultrasound!

BB said...

Praying for a heartbeat!!!

Mandy Peterson said...

With everything in me I want this to work out for you. Praying you get a miracle to be extremely thankful for this year!

emily said...

My prayers and hopes are with you.

emily said...

My hopes and prayers are with you.

Hope said...

WOW! Praying so hard!!

Marion said...

Gosh! This is the frst time I've heard about something like this! I hope that a miracle will happen and that you will get to take a healthy baby home in about 7 months time! You are in my prayers!

JB said...

Wow. Hoping for all the best with this incredible surprise...

Mrs. Katia said...

Praying, praying, and praying for you...

Tabitha said...

Don't give up!! God STILL PERFORMS MIRACLES...I've got a tiny one growing inside of me so I know this is true!! PRAYING!

Ashley said...

Praying for you!

Andrea said...

Yes, GOD Does Do MIRACLES!

Lifting you up right now and praying for you and your hubby.

Bless your sweet heart, as my heart just aches for what you are going through.

Many Prayers
xxx

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

Speechless and praying.

Hillary said...

Shocked with you and PRAYING!!

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