Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I am so confused right now…

I don't get this. Why is this happening to us? Today I got the call from our RN regarding our third beta. It came back at 107.

Yes, 107.

That is horrible doubling time. I was told that it's not viable at this point. In fact it's probably ectopic or a blighted ovum. I have to go in for more blood work tomorrow. I just don't get this. My last test on Saturday was negative(well it was also an internet cheap-o which I've always had the worst luck with before.) And my Friday test was fainter than the Thursday test. We both assumed that my beta was going DOWN not UP. I don't even feeeeeeel pregnant at this point. I am so confused.

10 comments:

Brittney said...

I'm so sorry - what an emotional rollercoaster!! Maybe this is a good sign? I do have a friend who had a lower beta that didn't double in the beginning and they also couldn't find a heartbeat for months, but lo and behold, they have a perfect little girl now. I wish I had some answers for you - I have no idea what your numbers mean:(

I'm praying for you and your next appointment...and will be anxiously awaiting your next post.

Shannon said...

Oh my gosh, I have no idea what that means and I cant imagine the wave of emotions you are going through.

I will be looking for you to update more tomorrow or once you know whats going on. I have been praying like crazy for you (((hugs)))

~J~ said...

Uhhh, I am frustrated for you. With so many YEARS of unanswered questions/confusion/frustration have a straight "yes" or "no" would at least allow you to put your heart in one place or another. I am sorry you are having to go through this. I pray that God will work a miracle for you, and he was also be your peace.

Meant to be a mom said...

I can't imagine how your feeling right now. Atleast some sort of closure or true answer would be fair. I'm so sorry your emotions are being pulled in so many different directions. I'm praying for you.

JB said...

That is so confusing, and so frustrating -- I can only imagine. They can do an early ultrasound within a week or so to look for a gestational sac that would indicate if it's a blighted ovum. No sac at all would probably = reabsorbed vs ectopic. At least there is a straightforward treatment for any scenario. I know none of these is good. Sorry.

Maybe, as Brittney suggested, this is just an early anomaly that will turn around? I don't know. I really hope so.

I wish there was a stick we could pee on immediately after every transfer to see if worked right away. Then, no agony or prolonged pain. Guess it just doesn't work that way.

Amber said...

Im so sorry to hear about the rollercoaster-poor thing

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

Im so sorry youre stuck on this roller coaster. I hope the doctors are able to give you some answers tomorrow.

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

Oh gosh! I echo everyone else's sentiments. This, in a sense, just sucks. I hope that increasing numbers still mean that you are pregnant and that your baby is fine. But I know that it'd be much easier to just know one way or the other instead of thinking you are pregnant, and then thinking you are not, and then not knowing. I am praying that you find some answers soon.

Once Upon A Time said...

My heart hurts for you that this isn't just a cut and dried thing- how awful it must be to not be able to move on from where you are at. I am praying that some answers and/or closure comes to you soon.

Hillary said...

I am so sorry - what a crazy turn of events that must make things so much harder. That "grey area" is such a difficult place to be. I'm continuing to lift you up in prayer and hoping that somehow God does a miracle through this.

(((hugs)))

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