Friday, November 13, 2009

Thank You for All of Your Prayers

I really struggled over what to title this post but I think it's fitting to just thank all of you who have lifted us up in your thoughts and prayers these past few weeks. I wish I could tell you that our miracle journey continued with a wonderful ultrasound experience but it was not to be this time.

Our RE was unable to find anything in my uterus. He warned us that he would not be doing any commentary in the beginning so not to worry us. But as I lay there and saw that nothing but black and white fuzziness show up on the screen I knew the outcome. Strangely he also could not find any signs of an ectopic pregnancy either. We did see two very, very small black dots in my uterus which may have been extremely underdeveloped gestational sacs that could have been the source of my elevated HCG but there was no way to really know.

I suppose we have the best outcome of the worst scenario of there being no baby. They are going to stop my PIO and just do HCG checks and another V-u/s to recheck to see that it is resolving on it's own.

Again, thank you all for your support. It's meant so much to us.

18 comments:

JB said...

I'm so sorry this has been such a long, protracted experience with a sad ending. It's truly unfair. I am glad you have a definitive answer now, though, so you can move forward with whatever comes next. Thinking of you...

Kerri said...

I am so sorry. I was certainly hoping for better news for you. I know it's extremely frustrating and upsetting, and I hate that this whole process had to drag on for you guys. I am glad to hear that it's not ectopic and that they do expect things to resolve on their own. You will be in my thoughts.

Tabitha said...

Oh man! I was really hoping for a miracle post about your miracle baby, but I keep reminding myslef that God has a plan. He doesn't like to see our tears, and He will make everything right someday...soon. Still praying for you...(((HUGS)))

Meant to be a mom said...

I'm sorry to read this. I know this has been a hard journey this go round. My prayers are still with you guys. God is watching over you.

Meant to be a mom said...

I don't even know how to say this and I don't want you to think I'm trying to keep your hopes alive at all. The last thing I want to do is try to make you go through more emotional days than you are already dealing with. But I can't help but feel compelled to at least tell you this story just in case.
A friend of mine who went through IVF recently went in for her hcg checks. Her HCG levels rose very slowly so they had her in for her 6wk ultrasound and saw nothing, told her the same thing they told you. She went back at 7wks and still saw nothing. Her hcg levels still were still up. At 8 weeks there was suddenly a baby in her uterus when she went in the for the U/S. The doctor was in shock because in all of his years he had never seen such a thing. Not with someone who had gone through IVF and new exactly when the embryo was emplanting. I hate to get your hopes up and I'm sure its a complete and crazy long shot that this could happen to another person I know.
But she was so sure that the progesterone was what kept her pregnancy going, even when they couldn't see anything and thought it didn't work out. I just wish your doc would keep you on the progesterone until they are sure things are back to complete normal with you. Like I said I'm sorry for even slightly planting anymore false hope in you but it happened once and I can't help but want to be sure with you. What if it was the same sort of situation and you needed to stay on the progesterone.
Like I said the realistic side of all of this is its probably not the same situation but could you see about staying on the progesterone until your levels start to drop just to be sure. What if?

Carol said...

I'm so very sorry for you. I know you had high hopes as did all of us lurkers on here who actually really do care.

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

I was really hoping that this was the day to experience the title to your blog and I hate that all of this roller coaster experience has only ended in a negative result. I do know that God still sees the big picture when our sight is so limited. I am still praying that we see more of that picture very soon. Sending lots of love your way.

kdactyl said...

I'm so sorry you didn't get that positive outcome we were all praying for.

Hillary said...

I cried with you when I read this post. I am so, so sorry and will continue to pray for you. Thinking of you today, especially.

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BB said...

So sorry! :(

Brittney said...

I am so sorry about the outcome of all of this. I was so hopeful for you, and praying for a much different ultrasound. I wish I could give you a hug IRL...Just know that you are so loved and that we are ALL thinking of you. Praying that you feel God's loving arms holding you tonight.

eyeheartinternet said...

Oh no. I'm so sorry.

Waiting said...

I'm so sorry. I prayed many times for you in the last couple days. I was really hoping for the best. I pray that you will experience God's incredible peace in the next couple days and weeks.

Nicole said...

Oh my goodness, what a horrible ordeal. I'm so sorry. It seems so cruel to have it drawn out, and so up and down like it has been. So sorry again. You sound like you're doing about as well as can be expected. Thinking about you

Shannon said...

My heart dropped when I read your post, I wanted this to happen so badly for you. Im sorry that you are going through this and Im sorry its causing you so much pain. You will remain in my prayers and I will continue to be here for you until you do get your miracle.

lori in va said...

Have hope. this same thing happened to me after years of infertility and 3 m/c's.........at 6w they saw nothing and my hcg levels were not doubling as they should not even close to doubling, but they were slowly rising, which to me meant hope and growth. at 7w u/s still nothing, they dr's started talking a d&c and scheduled it for a friday. On the wed before the d&c, I was 8w 1d and they did another u/s and there was a fetus w/ a beating heart (175bpm) measuring exactly 8w1d! I was elated. A miracle? I don't know, but he is here today, a healthy happy 4 yr old little boy! The dr said I have sort of a tilted uterus and scar tissue that was maybe hiding the sac and fetus fromt he u/s.....he really could never tell me how there was nothing for 2 weeks and then a baby! If your hcg levels keep rising, I know its hard and a roller coaster emotionaly, but have faith and hold on. Good luck to you. Lori

Once Upon A Time said...

I am so very sorry.

Nicole said...

Thanks for the well wishes! I would LOVE to send you my magic Dr. K's info. Should I just email it to the address I added you as a follower with?