Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Cue Anxiety

Alright, I WAS doing really well. This weekend was a great distraction because we were so busy. Hammer and I attended a wedding on Saturday which was a blast. The groom was from Kenya and his bride was from the US but they incorporated Kenyan traditions into the ceremony which was really neat. While he did not "pay" for his bride with a flock of goats (as is Kenyan tradition) we did eat goat at the reception dinner. Let me rephrase that, we had the option of eating goat. Hammer ordered goat and I played it safe with a vegetarian tortellini. But I did taste the goat; it tastes like goat. I think Hammer summed it up best when he stated, "It's like I have a petting zoo in my mouth." Nice.

Father's day was awesome...because my father was ALIVE. It really was a day of counting our blessings. Plus his birthday was also Saturday so we really had a feast on Sunday to celebrate it all.

I've been keeping busy with my distractions - I'm loving falling to sleep while reading my book each night. I've also started my knitting project. I REALLY wanted to make this thing called a Pom-Pom Papoose which is for a b-a-b-y but Hammer was worried that it would be to hard on me if things don't go the way we hope they do. And while I want to believe he's wrong, he's right. (darn it!) So I'll hold off of the papoose and instead have started something for our dog, he he he. Hammer doesn't like that either but I told him, "Doggie cloths or baby cloths, pick your poison," and he caved on doggie cloths. So I'm making a pooch pouch which goes around your dog so that they can carry treats, po.op bags, etc. Not that I think our dog is a pack mule but it's a good starter project and Moses would tolerate this quite well. Here is a sample photo

So these distractions have made me realize, TODAY, that I only have FOUR DAYS OF LUPRON at 10 units!!!! When did that happen?? And our egg retrieval is less than 2 weeks away. All of this I'm totally excited for, except one thing...The sounding. The v-a-g-i-n-a-l sounding. I'm really worried because I did horribly bad with my HSG. So bad that I nearly vomited and blacked out on the table and then I bled for days after the procedure. Hammer was supposed to go with me but his work schedule got changed and now he can't. Should I really be this worried? Is this unnecessary anxiety? I was thinking of asking my mom to come with me just in case. Any input would be MOST appreciated!!!

Current Meds: Lupron 10 units
Side Effects: intermittent nausea, burning and redness at injection site, moderate agitation, hot flashes, FATIGUE
Days Post Transfer: 0
# Eggs Transferred: 0
# Eggs Frozen: 0


Astrid said...

I love your pooch pouch idea. Adorable! I'm sure it will turn out beautifully. And the practice will mean your papoose turns out that much better WHEN you do need it. I'm excited for your upcoming cycle! Good luck with everything.

Bailey said...

The vaginal sounding is NOT bad at all, promise! It might be neat to have your mom there anyway. =)

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

The wedding sounds really interesting. A petting zoo in my mouth doesn't sound so appetizing, though. I'm so glad you got to spend Father's Day with your dad. What an awesome gift it is that he is still here after everything that's happened in recent months. It all makes you count your blessings a little more. I think distractions are great. I chose to make a lot of baby things during my infertility and treatment processes. For me, it was a declaration of faith that I would someday really see God's promise come about. I think that if you can make a papoose with the big picture in mind (that it will eventually happen) and not make it based on this IVF cycle being the exact means for it to happen, you could be okay. However, having said that, I know that when you go into a cycle REALLY believing that this could be the one, that division in your thinking isn't so clearcut or easy to maintain. So, knowing that, I'd say to stick with the dog clothes even though it's utterly ridiculous :-). I can't wait to see pictures of your dog wearing his tool belt. And, I echo the ideas of the previous commenter, that this will be good practice for when you really do make your baby's clothes!

P.S. Thank you for all of your kind comments on my recent blog entries. Things have been stressful but are starting to work themselves out. I appreciate all of the prayers and encouragment, though!

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

Oh, and I know NOTHING about having a vaginal sounding, but I think it's always helpful to have a support person with you whenever you are facing any kind of procedure like that. So, if your husband can't make it, there's no reason why you shouldn't ask your mom. Just having her there to pray with you and distract you may make all of the difference in the world.

Hillary said...

lol at a petting zoo in your mouth :)

Hang in there, you are getting close! I said a prayer that the vaginal sounding will be a piece of cake :)