Friday, October 30, 2009

It was nice while it lasted….

The last few days were filled with calling our family and close friends who knew about our IVF cycle to let them know and ask for prayer. I started to feel increasingly queasy and my boobies grew sorer. Those numbers just had to be doubling.

This morning I took another HPT, praying that the line would be darker. Sadly it was lighter. I crawled back into bed and told Hammer. I knew what lay ahead. I prayed knowing that this was out of my hands and in much more capable hands than my own. No matter what I trust my God.

My RN called this morning and said that my beta had only gone up to 30 in 48hrs which was not a good sign. They will have me do another beta on Monday, since it did go up, unless I start my period over the weekend. I called Hammer to let him know and then my mom. I'm blessed to have a very supportive manager who cried and hugged me when I told her the news. It has made it more bearable to still be at work today.

One thing I haven't mentioned is that the right side of my abdomen has been a bit tender and irritated. It leave me with a bad feeling that he might have been in the wrong place. If he was, it's a blessing that this may be resolving on its own. I also thought it may be just my stimmed ovaries getting all worked up and it may be that as well.

I appreciate all the prayers and comments that you have left for me. They have continued to be an encouragement knowing that so many people were praying for us. You are all amazingly wonderful women.

19 comments:

Kerri said...

I am so, so sorry about this news. I know it's devastating after everything you've been through. I also know that there aren't really any words that can make it better, but please know you have a lot of people thinking about you. Keep us updated about your next beta. ((HUGS))

Hillary said...

I am so very sorry. That is heartbreaking news, and I am sending lots of hugs and prayers your way as you wait until Monday. ((hugs))

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JB said...

So sorry this isn't going the way you (and everyone else around you) hoped. Try not to worry about the abdominal pain, that is probably your ovaries recovering from stimulation and retrieval.

I was really hoping you'd be the "one" this cycle. :) Next time. For both of us. So sorry it has to be this way.

Waiting said...

My heart sank when I read the title of the post. I am so sorry. I will be praying for you. I believe God is still in the business of miracles!

Meant to be a mom said...

This morning on my way to work I was praying and I started talking to God about you. I really felt good about this one. I'm SO sorry that this is happening and I want you to know I will keep praying for you guys.

Astrid said...

Ugh, sorry, I am praying for either a miracle or for no beta hell! Hang in there. Your positive attitude is infectious.

Mandy said...

I'm so sorry to hear...you are in my thoughts

Nicole said...

So, so sorry. I wish there was something to say. Thinking about you, and wishing you peace

Allison said...

I don't think there are words to tell you how sorry I am. Just know that you're in my thoughts and prayers over the weekend. ((HUGS))

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

Ugh! It just makes my heart sink. I'm still praying for you.

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

I'm very sorry to hear this, its heartbreaking. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Hannah

KZ said...

You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry.

NeNe said...

I am so so sorry. The heartbreak never gets easier and I know you must feel broken. Praying for you and hurting for you...

Shannon said...

My heart dropped when I read the title of your post. I am so so sorry. I hate that this is happening to you. Im praying for you and thinking of you.

Tabitha said...

"No matter what, I trust my God."
You are amazing. My heart breaks for you, and I feel a simular pain to yours. These cycles were supposed to bring us our long awaited for blessings, but God had other plans. Like you, I trust Him completely, but sometimes it's still hard to understand. Keep the faith, and know that I'm praying for you!!

BB said...

So sorry honey! You are in my thoughts! Warm Hugs!d

Simple said...

Oh Mrs. Hammer, my heart breaks for you & DH. Why must we endure this heartache? Try to stay strong & know you are never alone.. (HUGS)

Emily said...

I'm so very sorry to hear this. I'll continue to pray for you three this weekend until you get more news Monday. *hugs*

Once Upon A Time said...

I am so very sorry. I cannot understand why things like this happen to people who would make outstanding parents. You and your husband will be in my thoughts and prayers.