Friday, October 23, 2009

Me vs Wo.opie Go.ldburg

Last night I was exhausted. It was pathetic really. At 8:30pm Hammer gave me my nightly PIO injection. By 8:45pm I was asleep on the couch. By 9:00pm I drug myself upstairs and fell back asleep before my head even hit the pillow.

That’s when my weird dream occurred. I normally don’t dream or if I do I normally don’t remember them. In my dream I was lying on the couch with a bunch of people. Who.opie Go.ldburg was there, because, why not. With the way we were all laying Who.opie had her arm over top of my stomach. She turned to me and said, “So how far along are you?” I looked at her and said, “What? I’m not pregnant.” And she replied, “You could have fooled me with all that kicking going on in there.”

And then I woke up.

Now it could have been due to the fact that my progesterone, as of Tuesday, was 129 and probably climbing with each additional day of PIO. It also could be that (TMI warning) I’m so constipated I look 3-4 mo pregnant already. I’m convinced everyone at my office will think that I am because it’s so very, very bad. Even with Kah.si Go Lea.n (which I call Kah.si Go NOW!), extra beans in my burrito last night, and so much water I feel like I am floating, nothing is helping the bloat. So either Who.opie is right or she was just referring to my poop baby.

Today I’m 7dp3dt and this morning my early HPT was still negative.

Me – 1
Who.opie - 0

***On a serious note:
Thank you all so much for your words of encouragement. They have been so great to read. I have moments of peace and moments where I feel overwhelmed by feelings from our past cycle. It’s been great to have your comments to go back and read for encouragement. Yesterday was difficult because we learned our 2 6 cell –grade 2 embies were never able to become blastocycts and therefore discarded. Since Hammer and I have never had the chance to do a 5dt or have any of our embies make it to freeze we have been wondering if any of our little ones have the genetic potential to make it to implantation. It would help explain why last cycle our 8 cell grade 1 and 6 cell grade 2 didn’t implant or possibly why our 2-8 cells embies may not been sticking this time around. While this cycle is still not over yet it does leave us thinking that if we do a third IVF cycle we may look into CCRM where they do a bunch of genetic screening not only of Hammer and I but they can also screen our embies. This is certainly something that we will have to pray about but right now we are still just praying for this cycle. I know it’s still early. At least with this cycle I don’t have that feeling like they are no longer there as I did the time before but it certainly doesn’t make it any easier. Tuesday still feels a lifetime away.

11 comments:

JB said...

It's still a bit early to see a positive (not that I would know personally, but so I am told). If you have one beh-beh growing in there (versus twins), you would definitely need close to the full 14 days to see a positive. Hang in for a couple short days and you will know....go ahead and feel good about it until then; this could be the one!

Allison said...

I hope Whoopie is right! Thinking of and praying for you!!! ((HUGS))

Astrid said...

Hoping for distracting thoughts for you. I know how tough it is, hang in there. Do something fun, treat yourself. Do what ever it takes! The day will come, I know it's hard to imagine now but they always do eventually get here.

Astrid said...

PS, thanks for the award!! I've posted it at http://babymakingoneohone.blogspot.com/2009/10/spreader-of-love-blog-award.html

Shannon said...

Your dream about Whoopie had me laughing, Im praying she is right!

Tabitha said...

I am praying for you darling, hang in there. Let God's peace wash over you, He will Bless you!!

Hillary said...

Love the dream!

Those last few days are torturous - I am praying for God's peace for you. (((hugs)))

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Jocelyn said...

I love the dream! That's too funny! Praying for peace and strength - it will all be okay.
ps - I hear you on the "constipation" thing...brutal...

Once Upon A Time said...

Maybe Whoopie didn't have it out for you, but she was just cluing you in to something that is going on before you know it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Kerri said...

Okay, your Whoopie dream really made me smile. How random and funny. I hope she is right! Hang in there- I know the waiting is pure torture.

Brittney said...

Your dream was really funny!! Thanks for sharing. Hang in there - the waiting will be over soon:) Praying for you.