Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Just Killing Time

So my ticker says I have five days till 'testing' and they will be longest days ever. Well maybe not ever but I'm sure they'll drag. I've already tested twice (9 DPO and today 10DPO) and they have both been negative. I know it's really early but I have some cheap online tests that were out dated last month and I want to get rid of them. Hammer about gave me a heart attack this morning because I did the test and then hopped in the shower before it was ready to be read. He came in the bathroom and I asked him, "One line or two?" He replied one but then followed it up with a, "but there is this faint line on here, does that mean anything?" He had totally read it wrong. Ugh.

I hate to say it but my hopes have really been up for this cycle. I had cramping on day 6 and 7. Now my bbs are KILLING ME! Seriously, walking is painful and I wear a size 34A - there's not much to jiggle. Plus I have been starving and that may or may not be a symptom but right now get out of my way when I need a snack or you may be my snack. So if anything I think I have enough progesterone. I have yet, though, to hear back from my doctor on my blood work from the 19th. I'm getting a bit anxious to know exactly where my progesterone is at. I can't lie that I'll be sad if this month doesn't work. Part of it will be because it means IVF is next. I just wish the effects of progesterone were not so misleading. I know it has an important role in a successful pregnancy but when it gives you false symptoms it's just dumb.

So I'm going to find a distraction and practice my new knitting skills. I'm not sure what I'm making for my first project, right now it looks like an over sized dishtowel. But my knitting goal is to make baby booties as a way to keep my TTC goal in mind so that even if we have to do IVF it will be something to occupy me during the process. But before I start that, right now I need another snack...

3 comments:

Jesse and Mandy Peterson said...

Lol. This post made me laugh. Hunger can definitely be a sign of pregnancy. TTC just makes us go crazy, though, because, unfortunately, PMS and pregnancy symptoms can be pretty much identical. And then you throw in any kind of hormone therapies and they just mess with our minds!!! Everything sounds like it's in your favor right now, though, and I absolutely do with you the best! I mean that with all my heart! I know it'll be hard if you find out you're not, and believe that I will be praying for you all the way through it. The possibility of IVF may be overwhelming, but remember that God will never take you anywhere that He won't provide for you. Thank you so much for all of your support for me and I hope you know how much it is returned. :-)

Allison said...

((HUGS)) and prayers your way! Those symptoms during the 2ww definitely drive us crazy!!!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

i hope those are all signs toward pregnancy!! good luck keeping busy..i know how our hands may be busy but our minds always seem to wander..:)